Settling in, Reflecting on Growth
“Why fit in when you were born to stand out?” - Dr Seuss | Image Credits Unkown | The Cat in the Hat by Dr Seuss
I've settled into my room, and so far, despite everything, I'm still very happy with the choice I've made to go to my current engineering school. There are moments when the pressure feels a bit intense and currently my expectations are mixed. Yet, there's a strange comfort in this challenge. For the first time in a long while, I feel like I'm building the stairs to where I'm supposed to be.
These walls represents more than just an academic pursuit; it's a step towards the person I want to become. Every day is a reminder that I choose this, I choose this for myself and I am currently walking on the path I've chosen for msyelf, not just following the one laid out for me. I'm learning not just about software engineering, but about me, about how to carve out a space for myself even when it feels like the walls are closing in.
It's not always easy, especially when I think about the layers of my identity and the ways they intersect with the environment I'm in. But being here, in this room, in this school, is my declaration of independence. Heck, this personal blog, it's me saying that I refuse to fit into boxes that others might want to place me in. I am here as me, an artist, a programmer, a dreamer—living openly, even if just in small ways for now, of just being unapologetically myself.
Point is, I am choosing to embrace this chapter with all its messiness and beauty. Because, despite the challenges, I am growing. And right now, that's more than enough.
“Why fit in when you were born to stand out?”
― Dr. Seuss